It's a prose poem maybe...?
Maybe I was a cat in my past life, that's why I am always related to
cats in this life. I love animals: cats, dogs, chickens, ducks,
elephants, tigers, lions... but I simply love cats. I love touching
their silky smooth fur; I love to hear them purr when I stroke them; I
love looking at their sparkling big round eyes; their wiry tails, their
long thin whiskers, and their pointy ears. I just love them, as long as
they are cats, regardless of its breeds; no matter what colours their
are, I just want to hold them.
Maybe I was a cat, as friends tell me that I resemble a cat, and
some even say that my eyes are like cat's. I am not scared to be like a
cat, to be able to do as I like, with lots of freedom too. They are
dirty yet don't mind being laughed at; they are lazy yet they don't
care. They will curl up their body and sleep in the corner, enjoying
the moment. Time can't make them go fast, slow or be lazy, they move at
their own pace. If they see a prey, they will creep up and pounce on
it. But if they see their enemy, they will run away. If they meet the
people they don't like, they will avoid them.
Maybe, I really resemble a cat. Ever since I was growing up, cats
loves to come close to me (because I am like them?). When they are
hungry, they will meow at me; when they want some attention, they will
come around my ankle and rub themselves against my legs; when they want
to take a nap, they will jump into my arms cradle; when they want to
sleep at night, they will cross the roof into my room. Then, they will
lie down on my bed, give a few purrs and fall asleep.
From my memory, I had a lot of cats, a white cat, a black cat, a
yellow cat, a black and brown cat, a spotted cat, a tiger stripped cat
... but when they appear, they appear at different times. When the
white left, the black came; when the black disappeared, the yellow
appeared. They left, they never came back. They may have been captured;
they may have gone back to the wilderness; they may have found a new
master. They never tell me, and never hint to me. The elderly tell me
that when a cat leaves, it will never come back. But I don't believe
that, and await for their return every night, but I will believe this
until the next cat appears.
Now, I don't have a cat anymore, I am afraid of the loneliness when
they leave; the quietness when they leave; and the boredom that haunts
me when they leave. Maybe it's because of me that they are missing,
captured or killed. Because of their beauty; because I have spoiled
them.
Even though I don't have cat anymore, cats still appear before my
eyes, cats from the streets, other people's cats, they just love to
come to me. They love to tease me, meowing away. They love to sleep in
my cradling arms.
Maybe I was really a cat, and at that time, they had already known
me. And wait for me in this lifetime. When I am lonely, they know, they
will appear by my side respectively, and when the time comes, they'll
disappear again, respectively.
(1998)
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