Dear Name I will not Tell

A long time has past but yet I still remember it like it was yesterday.  I was wearing my nightie with the TeddyBear on, do you remember? he was in his little stripy nightshirt, clutching his pillow.  So cute he looked! It was dark and the normal screams that accompanied the night were not present.  Sharing my bedroom with my sister was always a pain but this night i was glad she was there for I fear if she wasnt what would have happened instead? 

Your presence awoke me, looking at you, I wondered why you was there.  I knew you'd been drinking, I could smell the alcohol on your breath.  Not a word was said between use as you came to the side of my bed, before I knew it I could feel your hot stinky breath on my cheek and your hard callous hand moving on my body.  "Move your leg" was all you said.  I was young but I knew that it was wrong, fear gripped my body, but not for me, for my younger sister.  What if she woke up? Would He hurt her too? It was over in an instant and you got up and left.  I laid there in shock and feeling completely numb, unsure of what to do.  I turned over to go to sleep, what else could I do? but then the door creaked and I froze.  Why did you come back? Kneeling beside my bed you bent down and whispered "Can I have a hug?".  I remember shaking my head as words would not form in my dry mouth.  "Your Mum always gives me one!" you stated, again I shook my head.  With one last look you got up and left.  That night I had no sleep, awaiting the creak of the door consumed me whole.

That night you took my innocence, I left the child behind.  Now I had strange feelings to churn up my insides.  You said you couldnt remember when questioned in the morning light, well, Judgement Day will come when you have to answer for your actions but for now, I guess, what I wanted to say was I forgive you....