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I'm currently at a crossroads – not some bullshit 'crossroads of life' thing, just a crossroads. I don't believe in that whole 'one decision will change your life' thing. It's just another way to go. For all I know your life has already been mapped out by a higher power, the government or maybe just by the creepy little guy who lives down the street. Maybe we have no free will, no self-determination or any decisions to make at all.
I'm the kind of guy who doesn't believe in all that 'glass half full/half empty' hippy crap. To me if there's water in the glass, then that's good enough. I don't care if it's just a drop or a full damn cup.
Right now I have a decision to make and I don't need or want anyone's advice. This won't change my life, my life will go on as normal but it's a decision all the same. I can't help wondering what difference my answer will make anyway. Life goes on regardless, I'll probably be just as bored no matter what I do.
In my mind I can see a crossroads, in the desert obviously, and there are several signs all leading to somewhere. If I take the wrong one it will lead me to nowhere, but even if I take the right one it could lead me nowhere as well. Maybe all roads lead to nothing and in time I'll just forget I even walk past these crossroads. Then again maybe one of the roads is the much sought after path to happiness.
All I've ever wanted from my life is to be happy. I could do anything in this life as long as it makes me happy. Unfortunately happiness is a drug, great to begin with and always fleeting, leaving you wanting it again and spending a vast amount of time and energy working out how to get it back. I also think there are a lot of charlatans out there who will try to sell you happiness in the form of consumerism. My house used to be full of utter crap that I had no real need of. If something broke I had to buy a new one. The thought of getting it fixed never even entered my head. We have become a disposable culture, if it's broke, throw it away and that includes people.
Anyway I digress, the problem I have before me is a common one. Do I tell my friend that I despise his new girlfriend or do I stay quiet and make nice with all concerned. If I tell him, will he dump her? Will he dump me? Does it matter too much? We used to be friends but over the years we've drifted apart, different friends and different interests. Will my life change at all if I never see him again? I doubt it but then I've always believed friends are just as important as family especially if the rest of your family are six feet under or in most cases, scattered to the winds.
The answer won't come easily to me but to be honest, I'll get bored thinking about it, go get drunk and probably tell him anyway. I've never been good at living a lie. What he does with this bit of wisdom from me is up to him. If he sees even a glimpse of happiness in the future with her, then he will pursue that with a relentless energy only reserved for tornadoes, but if he thinks he'll only get the mundane from her, then he'll gently push her out of his life. One things for sure, my life won't change, I'll still be me doing whatever it is I do. |
Written by Alexis.G (14 comments posted) 11th July 2008 | I can really identify with this. It is open, frank and concise, leaving the reader in no doubt of what you are trying to convey. No second guessing here, just an honest insight into a personal situation. All in all, an interesting piece and very well done!
Thankyou for your kind review of my speech, it was very much appreciated! |
Written by Jamie (4 comments posted) 12th July 2008 | Catharsis of this sort is something I readily and quickly recognise in myself and how I have dealt with matters that have irked me in my past. I tip my hat to you in your honesty and elucidation. And your frank honesty and diction.
A very good, short and not too manic rant!
It was good that your piece didn't end with a resolvement, more a muddle of whither does one go from here? For such is life, argument and personal relationships. |
Written by TwistedTales (544 comments posted) 12th July 2008 | Umm, not a story? Reads more like a non-fiction piece, but honest and believable and evoked sympathy.So the goal's been accomplished, just doesn't belong to this section I guess.
Some typos -
To me if there's water in the glass, then that's good enough for me - To me....that's good enough.
I could do anything in this life as long as it made me happy - as long it makes me happy.
Does it matter to much? - too much?
Otherwise, frank and transparent. Liked this.
Regards,
TT
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Written by Nick (134 comments posted) 13th July 2008 | Alexis/Jamie/TT - Thanks for taking the time to review.
Alexis - Glad you liked it and your speech was very good.
Jamie - Welcome to GR from a fellow Scot - I see you've posted a few things already - I will check them out soon.
TT - Once again, you are correct - I was unsure where to post this originally as it's not really a conventional story but nor is it entirely non-fiction - and just for the record I actually do like my mates new girlfriend - this was sort of a what if scenario. Oh and thanks for pointing out the spelling errors.
Nick |
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