This is hard.
I know what I have to do
but I’m afraid of doing it.

What if it is true?
What if everything will be different?
What if everyone will see me in a different way?

If it is what I think it is,
what will happen then?
What will my life look like?

Will I change?
Will people around me change?
What will people around me say?

I don’t want to,
I just don’t want to.
But still
that’s the only thing that will help me.

Say this is true.
How am I suppose to say it?
How am I suppose to handle it?

If I do this
will I help those around me
or just make what’s already hard worse?

I’ve had to take a lot from you,
but what will you say now?
It will destroy you.
I will destroy you.

I have so many questions and no answers.
I don’t know what to do
and I don’t know if I can pull through.