A short, somewhat creepy monologue I wrote. I'm including it in Short
Stories since it could just as easily be a story in 1st person.
A spotlight opens on SPEAKER. Their
entire face is covered with a mask of bandages, and they wear drab,
grey clothes.
I
woke up on the day It happened, feeling grimy and frustrated. It was
five in the morning on a Monday, and I had a day of office work and
mind-numbing drudgery to look forward to. I was up earlier than I
wanted to be, and I would be up earlier than I would want to be every
morning for the next four days, my own terms and wants shunted aside
to fill the expectations of some other being who would assume my
identity for the next 13 hours, leaving me dead and lifeless.
As
I resigned myself to this knowledge, as I do every Monday morning, I
felt a strange sensation overtake me. Something about this morning
was different. Something had happened in the night to make this
morning terrifying. Something wasn't right.
Tentatively
I tried to reassure myself, downplaying this nervous sensation as the
depressing combination of annoyance and an overactive imagination.
Instead, I began to feel filthy and claustrophobic, as if I was being
suffocated in slime. As seconds passed this feeling accelerated
quickly, picking me up in its tailwind and dragging me careening
until I crashed into full-on panic.
Quickly
I scrambled out of bed, clawing my bed sheets to the side and
bruising my leg against the nightstand. The swiftness of my
anxiousness quickly outpaced reason as I burst into the bathroom and
leapt into the shower, turning the water as hot as it would go and
not even bothering to take off my clothes as I scrubbed away at
myself, trying to wash off what felt like hundreds of millions of
pounds of sludge on every inch of my skin.
I
stayed there, washing in vain until my skin was raw and the water ran
cold. Howling out in protest to the unpleasant, icy water I turned
the shower off and grabbed the scratchiest towel I could find in the
room. It too, proved useless as I tried to use it to erode the muck
from my flesh. In anguish, I threw it at the mirror in front of me,
before I let out a gasp.
The
towel had rubbed some fog off of the mirror, and in it I saw what was
making me feel so trapped and disgusting. My face was not my own. The
individual features were all familiar, and it could have easily been
the face of my clone or twin, but its parts did not add up to that
which was I. Some je ne sais quoi that I had always
unwittingly associated with myself and with my identity was gone, and
worst of all it was replaced by that of a stranger.
Hate.
I could tell that I hated the stranger, though I had no reason to.
They had stolen my face. They had stolen my soul. They had stolen me.
I couldn't let them do that. I had to eradicate their influence and
free myself from them.
My
hands shaking, I opened the medicine cabinet behind the mirror
slightly, only enough to let my hand through, as I wanted to look the
stranger in the eye to make sure they didn't run away, only to
return later and torment me further. My fingers groped clumsily
before finally they found my shaving razor.
It
was not long before the stranger was gone from me, and my face was
reclaimed. It is a new face that I wear now, one of cloth and scabs,
that rustles gently when I turn my head. It is a new face, but I know
that it is mine.