I do wonder what I'm doing here today. Maybe its true, children never do listen to their parents,especially old parents. How could you disregard my wishes, my very last wishes. Was it so much to ask you to leave me alone. Just let me be. Yes, all these years I have said it again and again, when the time comes for me to die let me go. No need to rush me to the hospital and try to bring me back to life. I'm 88, I've had a good life, you have to let me go.

I have felt my body weaken over  the past month. I was geting slower but I didn't tell you. I know what you would have done. You would have insisted I see the doctors. what for! Didn't iI go through enough of that last year. Twice I was admitted. All of you hovering by my bedside, bringing me food I could hardly taste. You insisted it would be alright. but I knew the longer I stayed there in the sterile hospital room the more alone I felt. You all popped in, then off to work, to the club, to your busy lives. Time just dragged on and on for me.

This time I knew I wasn't right but I held on till the end hoping a higher power will allow me to fade away. I did see the light, soft voices calling me. but then I am here with these strange juices flowing down these plastic pipes into my body and this massive tube shoved down my throat. see how you'd like that,huh! I see myself, my limp body in the hospital gown and wonder what last memory you will have of me.

You sit by me waiting for the time to pass. belive me I'm waiting too. Having brought me here you now have to decide if you are ready now to let me go. Please, I beg you, let me go. I'm ready. I've made my peace with my maker, you have to make your peace too, someday.