I wanted to write purely my thought process. See where it lead, and so I just chose a subject.It's not like an essay but maybe more like a diary situation.Infact it sounds more like a ginat rant. I didn't want to think too much about what I wrote (I think that is evident in some parts  ) I'm not even sure if this is a good thing to pursue. Well this is just something I threw together. I'm thinking there will be many areas which won't make sense to people, but if it does, bonus. If all works well, perhaps making a series, and do a topic of the day and starting from that. I don't know, I just wanted to try something new for me.

 Would this disturb you to know that there was nothing to remotely provoke this thought. No external stimuli whatsoever. No alcohol, no drugs, no licking the skin of fluro coloured amazonian tree toads. Nothing but me and my overworked imagination. I think it right I giver her a name, considering she, and it is a she, pretty much own half of my waking time. Her name shall be Freyja. I've always like that name. Moving on.

Actually stop and consider this plan. The bowling ball plan. Just shhhhh, and think about it. I'm sure there is some unchartered tropical island somewhere that already has this as a regular system, so to them this would be nothing new, but to us, oh yes, something different. Okay, thought over. Those of you who would still like toc ontinue to think of the coconut bowling, you may remian here. I shall come and pick you up later. For the rest of us we are going to delve into some area and try to find the origin of Freyja. I mean why not, at this current moment in time I do not have anything else better to do. So come join me.

Let's begin where most of these tales do, at the area of childhood, unless you happen to be on of those people that were born unpon the moment your body died, so you live life in reverse to us, like that car ad. Sorry, you have to wait here, like the coconut people. If you found out something in your future, it could be very lethal to you, and maybe to me. You stay right where you are. I shall come back for you, or come forward? I shall come for you when it is time.

So le'ts try and find some point in my timeline that can explain for the creation of Freyja. I'm thinking when I was 4. Apparently I wandered away from home, and went on an adventure. Now, you cannot think bad of my mother. Do you realise how hard it is to look after a child. No matter how much they watch like a hawk, and hear...like a hawk Random thought generator processing:

 I'm not even a mum yet and I'm already feeling shaky about it. With all the watching, and running. Damn. But yes,  I must've had quite a reason for the adventure, more than likely a ridiculous one - come on it's a little me, it must've been a ridiculous reason, like finding how many books each person has in their house, or how many diiferent mailboxes there are in the world. Something like that surely. All I know is, the postman found me, and delivered me back home. Maybe that's it. Whilst on my quest, I discovered something so great that it kickstarted Freyja. No. I don't like that theory. Crap theory.

Talking about crap, perhaps I have a black hole residing in my skull. This could be where Freyja came from? She really is some alien lifeform, nay DEVICE. I could be one of those people who have had an alien encounter. Oooh imagine that..actually don't. I don't quite like that theory. Alien device theory is gone. But just for now anyway. I'm liking the blackhole theory. If endless hours of watching Star Trek has taught me anything, is that nothing escapes a blackhole, and that they're really quite dangerous, so do not go near them, otherwise you get sucked in and that is bad. This is a definition of a blackhole:

I don't think it is a black hole, rather a portal into another dimension. Oooh Freyja has come from another time..wait this is going to lead me back to the alien device theory. I think it's time we do a time jump, through to a few months ago, actually it would be now a year. Yes. Now I'm 17, and have just graduated from high school. Why don't we explore the high school years? Boring. That's why. Freyja lay dormant, poking through occasionally. Anyhow... So during that summer after graduation, nay 6 months, I did nothing. Well besides the countless hours of chatting online, writing terrible poetry and sleeping, nothing. Wait, could this be it? Through understimulation, Freyja made a big bang and resurfaced. Oh yes, when I make comparisons, I like to go large, especially when comparing an aspect of myself. So she kickstarted and went to work again. Combining the ridiculous and zany molecules to cook up her brilliant schemes. Random thought generator processing:

 Her brilliant schemes? Freyja has a life of her own within my body? Is she a parasite. No, sounds too stupid, even for me. Perhaps I have reached enlightenment, and am truly one with myself, or the other self inside me. This is reaching a religious angle, steering clear here. Actually this thought was ridiculous. See she's done it again.

 I think this is the theory I'm sticking with. I too shall call it the big bang model theory, until at a later date Freyja provides me with something more original. You know what, maybe there is no origin of Freyja. Perhaps she is part of a universal collectiveness that has been around since the dawn of time? I'd love to think so, that would of saved me all of this time. Sounds more mystical. This would mean Freyja was once in another being. Thus gaining more knowledge for me, the current body, to blurt out. Okay, I'm going to stop right now before I go onto compare that Freyja is god. I know it's going to happen.

The logical side of my brain has now begun to function, and it's beginning to realise how much of a fool I must be sounding. It's going to let me continue on further so it can have a laugh at me. *Pause whilst my logical side of my brain laughs at me......done* Now it's going to make me stop altogether. I think I'm going to name this logical aspect. It is also a she. Her name is Eleni. Yes, she tells me I'm to use my name, as it's only logical....fancy that.

Conclusion in logical format - I have no idea how Freyja came to existance.

 Oh, crap. I better go pick up the reverse and cocnut people. I'm not explaining this again to them. I'll tell them....Freyja is god. Damn, I said I wasn't going to use that. No, they don't need explanations, hello coconut people and reverse folk - both don't need to know yet. The coconut people won't understand at all.