"So let me get this straight. When I say,' I loved you.' You remember that you don't believe me," I whisper to Nic," well here, let me clear up the mystery for you. I loved you. Loved. Exactly as it says. I loved you once, but I don't anymore. This would be all your fault for breaking my heart. Now you have to live with the fact that you lost me. I hope you don't have any pain for that." 

"See, I knew you didn't love me," Nic says to me.

"No, Nic, that's where you are wrong, very very wrong. I did love you once. Then you had to go and leave me. You had to go and tell me that I was just using you for the attention you gave me. If I only wanted attention I wouldn't have cried when I hurt you. I wouldn't have cried when I told you that I hadn't been completely truthful with you. I wouldn't have cried when I lost your trust. I wouldn't have even told you that I hadn't broken up with Ahmed entirely yet. But now you would be correct if you said I didn't love you anymore. Because you hurt me more than anyone has in my entire life," I whisper to him looking deep into his dark brown almost black eyes.

I shake my head and begin to walk away," And you know what Nic? I don't care what you think anymore. I don't care that I have broken a few promises to you. Like the one about how I promised that I wouldn't cut myself. I now have fifty-four marks on my arms and legs from one piece of glass. You are not the cause of this. I am the cause of this. I have severe depression and that is all my fault. My fault for ever thinking that you could care for anyone other than yourself for any length of time. You think your life is so pitiful. Try walking in someone else's shoes. I garentee that you won't survive for a minute. It is also my fault for believing you when you said we would be together forever. Why I ever believed that, I don't know. Now I see my fault in that. Then I didn't. Then I even cared. But now I don't give a flying fuck about it, any of it. And why do suppose that is, Nic? Why do you think I am leaving all of you and my memories of you behind? Why do you think I would leave behind such happy moments? I know why but then again if you really knew me like you said did you would too."

I turn away from him and walk out the door. I walk across the parking lot to my little black Neon car. It's small and doesn't run very well but it get me from point A to point B. I slide into the drivers seat, put the key into the ignition, and start my car. I drive away, leaving Nic and all my memories of him behind.

On the way to my home to see my best friend Dakota and my boyfriend Joshie. Joshie and Kota are what really matter in my life now and I won't leave them for the world. Not the whole fucking world.

I begin laughing to myself," Untill we meet again Heart-Break. I know you'll be waiting for me again. And again. And again. But you know what? I won't be there for a very long time. So get out the crosswords and the never ending supply of caramel candy because you'll be waiting forever and ever it'll seem. And I will stick with the Roses and Jasmins."