Words fly out between my lips before I think
People look at me funny… I’d like to shrink
To a size they’d forget me altogether
Maybe I’ll disappear into the nether
And there I’ll have no mouth to speak my mind
I’ll live peacefully away from all mankind
Never embarrass, never again insult
When speaking in jest but anger in result
I’ll never again stumble over my words
So forget my stuttering and the things you heard
I’ll be calm and serious for the rest of time
Forget my happy jokes to be so sublime
I’ll hold my head down and cast my eyes away
When spoken to by someone I should obey
I’ll never make light of hard situations
I’ll be just like you and show my frustrations
I’ll wade in self-pity when the sky falls out
Instead of smiling up at the heavens about
When you die I’ll pretend the worms eat your face
Crawling into the brown box you are encased
(But maybe by the time I pass away too
They’ll forget the old box and create something new)
I’ll stop trying so damn hard to make you smile
I can do it but your pre-frowns aren’t worthwhile
And I guess the end is what you might not’ve guessed
Today I walked down the hall and was embarrassed