Not too sure where this one fits. Just rambling. I say we should have an "essay" category, or "patchwork" or some type of catch-all.
Do I talk to myself? Me? Why, yes I do quite often. And I listen to myself, which is equally important. For I have learned from these conversations that, as a species, we mature much slower than we are able to adjust to the external struggle we call life. The tugs are constant and we are our own best company. Of this I must remind myself.
I tell myself things I already know, and sometimes I make it all up and start to believe it myself. I finally understand that to teach and to learn are the only valid reasons to communicate, really; and the only hope worth hoping is to count on others to do likewise. I tell myself this and wait for the disappointments.
But I also lie to myself on occasion; I tell myself things I have no business saying, even when I am honest and speak truths I still wonder how I knew it all along. I can never resist telling myself how great I am, and myself doubts every word. Then there are times that I argue with myself, and disagree just for that purpose; I can be a difficult bastard.
One day in 1995, in the heat of argument I called myself names that I can’t take back, and I have not spoken to myself since. I will get over it in time, but myself will never be the same. Now I am forced to speak to myself through my wife and children, and they get angry with me, both.
But still, I myself will not listen; I have chosen to ignore myself and my own common sense. The trust I once had in myself is gone, there is no dignity left to me, and respect; that is just a good song on the radio.
If I ever get tattooed it will read “I, Myself 1995”.
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Written by Witzl (1585 comments posted) 15th February 2007 |
I talk to myself too, all the time. I figure it's a tough job but someone's got to do it. And I am the only one in this household who almost never gets tired of my near-constant whining, or my neurotic obsession with getting published.
Quite seriously, I thought this was funny and perceptive. Please know that you are not the only one who gets exasperated with himself and has to rely on the good will and love of his family on occasion.
Go on and ramble some more -- I know I'll read it. |
I talk to myself too...
Written by Leigh (226 comments posted) 15th February 2007 |
..and really enjoyed this piece.
Nice line in humour running all the way through.
Was wondering when you were going to get to the 'tattoo' of the title. Yes, ramble on... |
Written by Fledermaus (3306 comments posted) 15th February 2007 |
Interesting piece... It certainly makes me think and I'll have to discuss this with myself  |
Written by anorwegianwood (278 comments posted) 15th February 2007 |
I argue with myself all the time, though I've never given myself the silent treatment for more than a few days.
I really enjoyed this, and I assure you that I too will read your future ramblings. |
Written by Snodlander (501 comments posted) 16th February 2007 |
It's sad when you argue with yourself, and lose the argument.
Nice piece. HAve you ever tried a threesome? I, Myself and Me? |
Written by Marybarry (237 comments posted) 16th February 2007 |
My old mother used to say, that talking to yourself isent the problem. The problem is when you start answering yourself.
Nowadays we have the mobile as an excuse, " what! talking to myself, never. I was on the mobile"
Great piece. marybarry  |
All the neighbors
Written by bwoz (125 comments posted) 16th February 2007 |
Like a large committee of the committed....thanks for reading and the full understanding. Solidarity for the masses who ramble on in confused dialogues.
Happy to hear I am not alone in this quest, and myself agrees fool-heartedly.
thanks all for reflecting
BW |
Written by Phil (6730 comments posted) 18th February 2007 |
Enjoyed this Bwoz. Amusing piece, but beneath the surface plenty of truths. I like the bit about you calling yourself names. I do that when I've led a meeting and I've said or done something a little stupid. I have a twenty minute drive home from work and it can take nineteen and a bit minutes of swearing (at myself) to get it out of my system.
Phil. |
IF she would have known
Written by bwoz (125 comments posted) 18th February 2007 |
Had my wife known before we were married that she was actually getting 2 for 1 she probably would have chickened out.
I'm sure by now (25 years +) she's figured out that sometimes I'm not all here, and other times I'm double the trouble.
thanks for understand all, interesting comments too.
BW |
absolutely
Written by no1butClo (337 comments posted) 17th April 2007 |
perfectly worded.
best short article I've seen in ages. Should be put in non-fiction because - between you, yourself and me - it's all true. We all do it.
well done bw
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