When cancer is stronger than a families love.

Ruza

can you hear us asking you about your final thoughts?
about the way you lived and the peace you sought
merely a pale remembrance of your once golden color
slowly slipping away as we still judge each other

on that freezing July evening at about half passed ten
you closed the eyes that would never open again
we remember the look of freedom on your face
as your soul slipped peacefully from this hellish place

we cried and screamed and begged you to return
but our voices went mute when your body blurred
with one final pulse and a release of sacred breath
all of us understood that you have defied death

how long did you lie there waiting for closure
whilst your body bled out your life force so slowly
was it worth the pain for a mere single goodbye
why Ruzica, did you have to die?

in loving memory of a perfect sister and friend
may i imagine your grace around every corner and bend
may you lead us through all times of tears and dismay
and may we find each other somewhere someday

Ruzica Sakulski
1991 - 2007

if the size of a spirit is judged on tenderness
open wider the gates of heaven